Dr. Laura Schlessinger has written a new book, "Bad Childhood, Good Life", and it's gotten me thinking about the things I am hanging on to. A caller to the Dr. Laura show said he feels for the fat people he sees at the gym, because they are wearing their bad childhoods on their bodies. Boy, that's got me thinking. I even went to this website to look at the book. I'm afraid to buy it, in a way. What if it really does help me to get rid of the poison of my past? Then I really will be able to lose weight, and my life really will change. Wow. I could be healthy and live a long life. Or I can be fat and miserable and die much younger than I should.
The frustrating thing to me is how much I let fear dictate my life. I'm afraid of change, afraid of losing weight, afraid of being vulnerable, afraid of being successful. Stupid fear, fear, fear. People with disabilities and severe setbacks pick themselves up and live happy lives. I am able bodied, capable of doing pretty much anything I want, and I'm wasting time trapped in a huge body, crippled by the way I think.
Well, I think I am going to buy this book tomorrow and try to get to the root of my troubles. In this case, the trouble really is all in my head!
